Lately I’ve been getting so many people asking me why I’m still single. Like, really? I find it amusing when people give me the what-the-heck-are-you-talking-bout look when I tell them I’m not looking. In all honesty I don’t think you’d find love, I think it’s love that finds you. If you’re looking for love cause your friends are all couply or just so it happens it’s wedding season then you’re searching for all the wrong reasons.
It’s nice being in a relationship, I’ve been there. It’s beautiful to have someone to talk to anytime of the day for just about anything. And it’s really nice cuddling and hugging keeping each other warm. But trust me, I also know if it’s not the right person, you’d just end up hurting yourself and worse the other party.
No I’m not saying being in a relationship is a bad thing, on the contrary if you’re with someone then good for you. Really, good for you. It’s hard to find two parties that love each other so hold on to that. Okay, I might get heckled for being conservative bout what I’m gonna say next but here goes. I honestly think that those people who gets into a relationship cause they have a crush on someone or like the other person is stupid. If you think you like that person get to know them first, be friends not couples. It sounds old fashioned for me to think that you should only get together if you love each other, cause I don’t see that being a couple to test how things go and maybe find love is a good idea. Would it even last? What if someone better comes along huh?
Maybe that’s why I find it so hard to get together, cause I’m dreaming of falling in love, and not just trying things out with someone hoping things would work out. I’ve found it before, told them and didn’t find it reciprocated. It’s heartbreaking for sure but at least it’s worth it cause at least I tried. I’ve also been on the other end, I know how hard and awkward it is to say no in the nicest possible way. Okay another point being is, how can you honestly say you like me without even knowing who I am. I’m flattered honestly and I find the things you say and text really sweet but shouldn’t we at least be friends first, like maybe hangout a little, get to know each other better. As much as I crave having a relationship I’m sure as hell not going to plunge myself into one on a whim.
Maybe I don’t dare to take the leap of faith but hey, it’s not your own life we’re talking bout, there’s another person in the picture. Do I like single-hood? Yep. Do I like couply-ness? Yep. There are times I really feel so alone but there are also times that I love my me-time.
Just because I’m a “good catch”, to quote a couple of people who shall remain anonymous, doesn’t necessarily mean I should be taken. I’m just holding out for that indescribable feeling, I’ll know it when I feel it, cause I’ve felt it before. And people always say, what if you don’t find anyone and end up alone. Hey, there’s so many people out there and if I can’t find one doesn’t mean I need to settle. If it’s not meant to be, it’s not meant to be, right..?